From today’s reading...
Here is a saying that you can rely on and nobody should doubt: that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners. I myself am the greatest of them; and if mercy has been shown to me, it is because Jesus Christ meant to make me the leading example of his inexhaustible patience for all the other people who were later to trust in him for eternal life.” 1 Timothy 1:15-16
The good news is, Jesus is patient. The bad news is, Jesus is not a fool, nor does He suffer them.
He will give you everything you need to repent and be saved, but you must accept His gifts and put them to good use.
If He can redeem and save a torturing, murdering zealot like Saul and give him a new mission as Paul, imagine what Jesus can do for you and with you? That’s why you must...
Stay the course.
Keep the faith.
Endure.
Now go sell something.